It’s been quite a while. The last blog I posted was almost a year ago. What can I say? Discouragement is hard. My writing had been going nowhere and I was missing motivation to keep on going. So why am I writing now? I guess because even if I’m not at a place where I have a clear direction in my life, I have a story to share. That’s what makes me a writer.
Almost three months ago now, I lost my job. People who haven’t experienced this, don’t know how hard it is. They think you have all this free time to watch tv, read books, take naps, have extra vacation time and just collect that unemployment. In reality it is something else. You spend most of your days and nights worrying about what you are going to do with your future. You job search endlessly. You put in applications for jobs you are not even sure you want. You go to interviews or have phone interviews and wonder if you tanked them or aced them. Sometimes it is hard to tell.
You answer the endless questions from well meaning people. How’s that job search going? Did you get a job yet? Where have you put in applications? So and so is hiring if you want to try there.
You try to keep a positive attitude. I’ve been trying to tell myself from the beginning God would not have taken away my job if He didn’t have a better one for me. But many times I fail miserably at this. I wake up in the middle of the night and think about my next step. Will it be a good one? Will I make the right choice? That last interview I could have said…
So, here I am. Waiting for my new start. It puts new meaning to life being an empty slate each day for me to write upon. Prayers, people. It’s all that keeps me going. Prayers and determination. Until I find my new path, I’m sharing a little of the road with you.